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for the past four years
I’ve been in love with a boy
who’s too busy loving life to notice
I exist. I don’t think he’s ever seen me
past his tunnel vision living--

I’m in love with a boy who
wears black gauges and swears
he’s a deist who’s fed up with
the backwards-fucked system
that governs our lives; he talks to me
about the symbolic importance
of hunger and need and rebellion
and isolationism and death as
Orwell and Golding must have written it,

and, god, I just want to crack open
my ribs so he can see the literary
starvation destroying me, the not-quite
metaphoric devastation of my liver and
paper cuts scarring my heart. I want

him to talk to me about the reasons
we ought to avoid college
and capitalism and commitment and explain
to me what this all really means.

[I want to be so unflinchingly honest
with you that it will be as natural
and sinful as all the others
before, just without the glare
of bare skin and self-hate. I want to tell you

about the dam two miles out from my house
and how it calls to me nightly. I want to tell you
about the lake where I had my first kiss and
my first dive at loneliness and how it turns
inky black when you’re not watching.

I want you to know that I can’t cry anymore
as some broken time blocks my tear ducts,
and that I can’t even string a sentence up
properly without it fraying. I want you to know

I’m afraid of silence. I want you to realize
I can’t speak about myself without lying;
I don’t think you know how much
I don’t know. I don’t know why sometimes
when you stare at me I forget how to breathe
and speak like I know what I’m doing.

I don’t know what cosmic force keeps my heart beating
when my brain has stopped. I don’t know
how to forget, I don’t know where I’m going or
who I’m dragging with me. I don’t know
what political turmoil I’m stepping into,
or what parties to get trashed at, or
the difference between those two.
I want you to know I don’t know anything,

I’m not worth anything, but for
as long as I live, I will want
to know you.]
he wears tacky hawaiian shirts and flip flops and gets stoned too often and is surrounded by people he hates. he knows way too much about politics and life and things that shouldn't matter and has the goddamn most beautiful smile that's so real it hurts
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heylookitsvante Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i like it.
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
thank you <3
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Imaginedreality13 Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2013  Student Photographer
everyone has their own string that weaves the fabric of humanity.
and damn...is this my string.
i can feel the tension between the two.
this is intense.
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
thank you so much <3
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Imaginedreality13 Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2013  Student Photographer
youre welcome :D
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FuzzyHoser Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I love this and you and I'll have you know this ought to be published. Ahem.
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:love: stop flattering me
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FuzzyHoser Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
No, ma'am. One of these days you'll mind me and go get yourself famous in poeting. ;)
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:iconintricately-ordinary:
intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
fantastic verb conjugation, there <3
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FuzzyHoser Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
latest avatar 
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MichealCaesar Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Stuff like this is what keeps me having hope and faith in the DA Lit community. Absolutely brilliant. A great blend of teenage angst and nativity with the self awareness that comes with growing up and the flawless execution of a skilled wordsmith. Well done. 
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
so happy to heard you liked it, thank you for all your praise!
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SilverMoonRising Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I love this, but I honestly hate the change from saying "him" to saying "you." I figured it was probably on purpose, but I can't stand it.
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I understand. It was a stylistic choice, because I wanted the latter half of the poem to feel more personal, but I get why you may not like it.
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SilverMoonRising Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
It does give that affect, but I turn into a grammar nazi sometimes.
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Cole-y Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2013
the flow is really something here. i'd say it reminds me of ginsberg if the lines were longer; it has that rhythm.
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
that's a fantastic compliment, thank you so much
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0hgravity Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
ah, the crush poem. 

if you weren't such a fantastic writer this could have been eyeroll-inducing.

there is something so satirical but real about this, like...I know it's typical to fall in love with the cerebral, chain-smoker and bleed my heart all over their non-existence in my life buuuut it happened and this is how it fucking feels.

this piece has such a nice, raw flow; it felt like it was being spoken rather than merely read... hint hint
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
glad to hear I managed to avoid eyeroll-inducing. thank you so much. and haha, i want to start reading my pieces but i really have nothing good to record with :/
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0hgravity Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
yes, you were miles away.
gaaaah, excuses! have you tried your phone?
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:iconintricately-ordinary:
intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
i have such a bad phone; if anything, it's worse.
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0hgravity Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
dang.
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PrussianPersephone Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I hope it's a good kind of pain.
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:iconintricately-ordinary:
intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
haha, it really is
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UntamedUnwanted Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Your lovely work was featured here untamedunwanted.deviantart.com…!
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
what an honor! thank you :heart:
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UntamedUnwanted Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome! :heart:
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nikikt Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is pure perfection.

Why do boy trouble and pain make the best poetry? I think because it's so real to us. I hope one day joy is so real to you they would call you the next Shakespeare you are and we can watch pain fade from its last dying-star cresendo and write the first stanza of happiness.
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
god, you're lovely :heart: thank you so much
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IntraSect Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2013
Does it truly hurt because it is so real?

Ask only your heart and follow its answer.
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I believe so. It's hard to handle things that are genuine.
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Contradictory55 Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2013  Student Writer
The force and truth and just power behind this is so much more than just frayed ends of a string; it's all the ends spliced together to form an even stronger whole.
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
thank you <3
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Contradictory55 Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2013  Student Writer
You are welcome :)
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ssensory Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2013   Writer
and, god, I just want to crack open
my ribs so he can see the literary
starvation destroying me

 

I really, really liked that part.
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ssensory Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2013   Writer
ah, crap i didn't mean for it to be all in italics!
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:iconintricately-ordinary:
intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
haha, it's alright. thank you!
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ssensory Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2013   Writer
you're welcome!
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history72 Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2013
Amazingly put grand
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:heart:
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Forcesword12 Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2013
Many can relate to this work of art. All I can say is: Bravo. There are very few words in our english vocabulary that can truly describe the beauty of this writing. :)
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
you're so kind! thank you <3
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Forcesword12 Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2013
You're quite welcome! X3
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saltwaterlungs Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Incredibly powerful and honest. i haven't read a poem liek this in a while
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:iconintricately-ordinary:
intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
thank you :heart:
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saltwaterlungs Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
no problem. truly beautiful.
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randomphilosopher Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2013   General Artist
I can relate to this so much. Some people you meet just crack open the sky. This is beautifully, beautifully done.
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:iconintricately-ordinary:
intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
that means the world coming from you :love:
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randomphilosopher Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2013   General Artist
:blushes:
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TheAntiAnti-Drug Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
This is so powerful. 0;
I feel like I'm seeing into your brain.
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