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i drink to you, raising my glass and
choking down the things you left,
ignoring my gag reflex and waiting
on the buzzing in my head, white cotton
lullabies for the weak of heart.

it kills me that we are just a
collection of vignettes, that soon
i might see your blossom fingers
and bleeding sunset smile but
only as a memory gone static with neglect;

this summer, i became a rebel. a
martyr in a child’s game, a vagrant
with boxes of dead poetry to call
a home, and when i asked you to want me,

it’s only so you’d take the sanity and consciousness
with you when you left. i miss
the days when personality disorders
were not graceful.

do you even remember taking me to the moon?

you were so fucking tripped out on acid
and weed and love and other drugs
that you thought we were a portrait.
midnight blues and sober grays
breaking even for a story,

but every planet we landed on
was already dead.

and trust me, i know you wish life was
a one night stand, because you
can’t keep looking it in the eyes
when you roll out of bed in the morning
with a hangover and a little less time. i know
you dread it. i know you dread me

when you collapse onto me like
a pile of lovesick letters from
teenagers dreaming of leaving home,
like a pile of all the first stars
that appeared to our naked eyes throughout life
dragged down by the wishes they didn’t bring,

like an anchor labelled “never sink.”

god, i miss the emptiness of me before
you came in like the morning tide. before
i told you all my fears and you
asked me to wake up.

i would’ve loved you dry, and then some.
i would’ve been your most belligerent stargazer,
your most honest narcissist, i

could’ve rewritten you so well.
sorry this is so long
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killzonekrissy Featured By Owner May 25, 2014
this is phenomenal and incredible. I have no words, just ..... wow. Holy ... wow.
intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
thank you so much <3
haphazardmelody Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This really speaks to me of how hard it can be to love someone you cannot fix.
intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
that's exactly it <3
bohdicollective Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2013
jesus christ. this poem almost made me cry.  the last two stanzas and the last line, oh my god. this is a good summary of my failed summer love. could've rewritten you so well :heart: ugh. it's beautiful and flows incredibly. 
intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
alksdfjlskaj thank you so much :heart: it always makes me feel better to know someone else has felt the same
bohdicollective Featured By Owner Aug 14, 2013
i keep coming back to this poem just because i understand it so much. ugh. silly boys. :XD: and you're always quite welcome :heart:
flummo Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2013  Student Writer
everything from "when you collapse onto me like / a pile of lovesick letters" down to the last bit is fucking perfect.
intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
ahhh that means the world to me from you <3
flummo Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2013  Student Writer
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