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October 20, 2013


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take two.

a week past the end of the world,
and there’s something therapeutic
about not caring.  I must’ve

really messed up in another life. I
wake up shaking and forget to sleep
shaking and hold your hand, shaking,
remembering the moment I became

poison. I feel crazier than ever; cementhead’s
good and gone with his plastic wrists
and missing soul. the boy who entertains
his unfriendliest nightmares couldn’t
muster up enough innocence
to make it right. (today, he writes
a letter; dear Sophia, he tells me

it doesn’t get better. I’m
locked up for a crime I
didn’t commit. you did it,
Sophia. you built me

wrong.) but you know me,
I fell in love with a problem I
couldn’t fix, a boy blinded
who’s never seen the light.
He was a stormy violet but I
am cyan graying with age--

I spent most of my life dying,
and the rest of it wishing I
was someone else. they tell us

only god will see your ugly;
and the girl who swallowed
razorblades can’t cry, and
the serial killer before her time
can’t cry, and the boy who created
a father out of thin air doesn’t
even remember he exists;

about now, it seems like
I don’t either.
if this is at all triggering tell me and I will put up a filter

this is all pretty real though
I met a boy who smashed his head open with a cement wall,
a boy who feared a man named Wallrider and wrote to his god Sophia,
and a lot more. you know me,
I never sleep.
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Perfling Oct 26, 2013  Student General Artist
Love this:

and there’s something therapeutic
about not caring.  I must’ve

really messed up in another life.
thank you so much <3
i really feel this. i've read it several times over the past couple of days, and it's stuck with me. i still can't think of what to say. it's both ethereal and caustic. there's this dream-like quality to it (which is sort of ironic, now that i think about it). 

lovely to the tenth power.
i really can't tell you how much that means to me because you inspire me so much <33 i'm feeling a little ethereal and caustic, lately. thank you, thank you :love:
CheshlyTheEpic Oct 24, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Hey, I'm curious to know if you have sleep anxiety? Not meaning this in any purposeful offense. 
I don't believe so. It's nothing I have been diagnosed with, and up until about 7 weeks ago, I never had any problems with sleep.
CheshlyTheEpic Oct 24, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Ah. While that would be unfortunate, I think it gives you your sense of motivation. I'm a first time reader, but it's an easy observation. You're really talented. You connect with the audience as yourself, relating to memories and such. (?) 
haha, well, I certainly have had some sleep issues. Right now I'm on a sleeping medication to help that. Thank you. I do try to use different memories and stories and people I know to make my writing more realistic. 
CheshlyTheEpic Oct 24, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
It's scarce for an artist to bond with their work. Usually, they just want to please the people. But I get this vibe from you that says you don't really mind. You >like< when people enjoy your work as much as you do, but it doesn't define your craftsmanship. Eh.... I'm babbling. Sorry. 

You're welcome. Keep up the good work, dear. 
PrussianPersephone Oct 24, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I don't know about you, but my dreams and daydreams are at times the best things in my life...and the worst.
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