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i.
it is dark. that
is a judgment. my roommate
is snoring, and somewhere,
a girl is crying because
she doesn't have a heart
so she doesn't have
a home. if we are time bombs,
I think I must have detonated
a little late. it is dark
and I can't see
why all problems are defined
but their need to be solved.
I dream in color, but I live
in black and white. I drown
in gray faces that don't
sound familiar; it is dark
and I can't remember
the last time it was bright.
ii.
I am afraid
of caring. we are a strange
people, we, who love by
hating ourselves, by bleeding
out anything
good. I
am afraid that
one day, I might start crying,
and I won't be able to stop and
it will be the second Great Flood,
all the world will drown in
my mistakes. You
draw that out of me,
like a marionette on
a string, you pull these
anchors out from
my stomach until I
can hardly breathe. you
live on the other half of the mirror,
and
I am afraid
that distance is too
wide.
iii.
maybe,
in the end,
it's all the same. every
happily ever after tastes
sincere, every bookmark, every
memory loses its purpose. I've said
goodbye so many times, it's
muscle memory-- flinch,
repeat. swallow, repeat.
goodnight you, who
dreams of something
different. you, the
beautiful. you, the
broken, the believer.
I will never say
goodbye, but I
will lie in this discomfort
until my ever after
comes to get me,
too. (repeat)
it is dark. that
is a judgment. my roommate
is snoring, and somewhere,
a girl is crying because
she doesn't have a heart
so she doesn't have
a home. if we are time bombs,
I think I must have detonated
a little late. it is dark
and I can't see
why all problems are defined
but their need to be solved.
I dream in color, but I live
in black and white. I drown
in gray faces that don't
sound familiar; it is dark
and I can't remember
the last time it was bright.
ii.
I am afraid
of caring. we are a strange
people, we, who love by
hating ourselves, by bleeding
out anything
good. I
am afraid that
one day, I might start crying,
and I won't be able to stop and
it will be the second Great Flood,
all the world will drown in
my mistakes. You
draw that out of me,
like a marionette on
a string, you pull these
anchors out from
my stomach until I
can hardly breathe. you
live on the other half of the mirror,
and
I am afraid
that distance is too
wide.
iii.
maybe,
in the end,
it's all the same. every
happily ever after tastes
sincere, every bookmark, every
memory loses its purpose. I've said
goodbye so many times, it's
muscle memory-- flinch,
repeat. swallow, repeat.
goodnight you, who
dreams of something
different. you, the
beautiful. you, the
broken, the believer.
I will never say
goodbye, but I
will lie in this discomfort
until my ever after
comes to get me,
too. (repeat)
Literature
Some Wonderful
When I browse the index of
"things they never told me,"
I like to rest my fingertip on
"seemingly insignificant moments
tend to matter most."
I'm ignoring all the formal portraits
for the candids.
You admiring the cobblestones
(we thought they were originals)
in the old end of Boston,
picking out what houses were made
of colonial brick,
and which weren't.
Kissing my shoulder
as I tried to write,
which kidnapped my words
but I couldn't be angry.
Your expression when
you caught me sneaking a snapshot
at the restaurant
that you didn't want saved,
(or sent to your mother.)
While I can still remember
exactly what you wore
the first time we
Literature
9729 kilometers away, to be exact.
i have these bones like flowers-
fragile and finely plucked,
these lily stargazers
are kissing ocean beds,
making love to sirens
while yearning
for a taste of her
wander(lust).
i want to tape maps to my limbs-
throw caution to the wind
as i gather up
every love letter receipt,
from every false attempt
i ever wrote her
& forget for just a moment
that even still
light-years away,
she does not love me.
Literature
suicide risk
i.
you are six shades of sadness
on a too cold, too big seat,
a shrunken apostrophe and
paroxysmal, the balls of your feet
strumming the hours gone
("i want to go home,
please, please, i just
want to go home").
ii.
it is your relief and your regret
that she knows you so well.
It is she who brings forth a doctor
then, when you are past talking-down, done,
wrung out and horse-footed in your need
("let me go home, please,
please, i just
need to go home")
iii.
softly accented words spoken off to the side:
"Yes. Let's keep her voluntary now,
it will be quicker: but if her wings sprout
and itchy feet sample corridors,
we'll make it an order."
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broken thoughts:
i. restlessness and noisy sleepers
ii. jake and the unruly borderlines
iii. mally and my half-ass goodbye
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