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i’d tell you I hated you
if you had a voice or a face,
or any sense of tangibility aside
from the spider fingers you use
to crawl through my brain

you are not beautiful, like
all the other poets protest. you
are the red in my eye, like
a pen bled; the ragged to
my fingernails, the hitch of my breath
when it catches in my throat.

ii
before i go, i’ll write a million letters (a million
pennies for my thoughts, bitter, embedded
under my tongue) and send them to people
i’ve never met, telling them how my eyes were blue
when i was little but now are the same gray
i’m choking on, how i am maddie and how that’s short
for a name i was never graceful enough for, how
i tell myself stories of lives i’ll never live so i
can go to sleep

because when i’m really gone, that’s all that’ll be left
of me

iii
(it’s funny what people
try to justify with words)

iv
you never loved me,
you selfish thing, i wonder why
i wasted so many nights reliving
the sound of your voice. warm,
and crackling in my ear; surging
down my spine until you were

every piece of me. there was
no vaccination that would’ve spared me
your infection: you are a venom, the
unbridled weapon of some malevolent
animal with sharp teeth. i am

diseased.

v
and

,what a lonely existence, i used to think of the seaglass girls
lost in cabins, buried in the woods of their own making;
so far from the ocean that their disrhythmic hearts
were their only reminder, ebbing out like the fickle tides:

then i became one

vi
(i always wanted to write a novel;
my story, in fragments and
shards like the ones i lived. a

perfect dystopia, immortalized
in ink and paper, but
i never had the words)


vii
you never gave me enough
"if life is twice as pretty once you're dead, then send me a card"

-

what's on your mind?
'nothing'
well, what are your thoughts right now?
'i don't know'
i can tell you're shutting down
'it's not that, just...'
what are you thinking about? really, for once

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jodeanna Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2014
Oh, this is lovely but fierce! iv is the one that kicked me in the gut though because I can relate to it far more than I'd like.
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BrotherGrimSVSD Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2013  Student Writer
I don't know why, but for some reason I've never had a decent look through your gallery. Only now am i realizing my mistake. I love this so much, and i don't know why.
:squee:
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
a lot of these are (relatively) new. thank you!
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Pen-and-mouse Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2013
I cannot explain why I love this so much, or maybe, what I love the most about it. Maybe that's about the fact my eyes were blue when I was little and now they're grey. Maybe that's the incredibly intriguing way you put your words together to create a piece of Art.

I don't know, I really don't. But I do know that I'm SO in love with your poetry! :heart:
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
i'm so honored to hear that :love: thank you so so much for all your support and loveliness :heart:
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flummo Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2013  Student Writer
iii. ahh isn't that what we writers do?

and what's your real name

and your metaphors your metaphors :heart:

and :heart:
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
iii haha, certainly

and Madalyn

and :iconlaloveplz:
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flummo Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2013  Student Writer
that's lovely
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MakaykayFOshizzle Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2013
This is so beautifully written!
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:heart: thank you so much
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2013  Student Writer
there's something really... mystic, almost, about this. It's like I can understand what you're saying, but it doesn't translate into words. It's beautiful.
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
i absolutely adore the way you put that :love: thank you
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solis-ortus Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2013  Student Writer
you're welcome :)
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ZaquiaStorm Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2013
*quietly comes in, reads poem, and proceeds to share it on Tumblr, followed by submitting it to a few literature groups* :paranoid:

*proceeds afterwards to send Maddie all the loves* :heart:
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
you're too lovely :tighthug:
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ZaquiaStorm Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2013
Not at all, dear. :tighthug: :3
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FaeSoul Featured By Owner May 31, 2013
I jut keep reading this over and over, trying to find words for it beauty. But I can't, obviously. This is so amazing, I can't even describe it. It makes me want to write more.
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:love: thank you so so much, I hope you do
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479563E Featured By Owner May 31, 2013
so this is the first piece of art i saw on this website, and i can not express how glad i am that i clicked on it. this poem made me want to start to write again, so that maybe one day i can write something that resonates so deeply in a complete stranger...

i am literally in awe of how good this is! its just..... wow.

i have no words that can give this justice...so i will leave it at that.
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner May 31, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
asdfghjkjhgfdsa that's simply one of the best things a writer can hear, especially considering how I get the same kind of awestruck when I read a good piece of literature. I do hope you continue to write :heart: thank you so much, you've made my day :love:
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Phantasma-goria-666 Featured By Owner May 31, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Wow, this is really moving, I must say!
I really liked it :) well done
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner May 31, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
thank you so much, I'm honored to hear that :heart:
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Phantasma-goria-666 Featured By Owner May 31, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
No problem c:
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KaitForest Featured By Owner May 29, 2013   Writer
holy fuck
this is so beautiful
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner May 30, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
ahh i can't tell you how much that means thank you so much
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MozartsNemesis Featured By Owner May 28, 2013
Such a sad and desolate poem, told in the most beautiful way. I'm in awe of this poem. I've read it four or five times through, and it's better each time I read it. I really couldn't pick out a favorite line, because there are so many great ideas and epic lines in this. I bow in respect my dear. This is just perfect.

"you are not beautiful, like
all the other poets protest. you
are the red in my eye, like
a pen bled;"
-this resonates so deeply. Your imagery is as wonderful as ever.

"you are a venom, the
unbridled weapon of some malevolent
animal with sharp teeth. i am

diseased."

just.. holy shit.

Stanza V is by far the best stanza in this poem(in my humble opinion). The metaphors and imagery are perfect..just wow. The ending is wonderful as all your endings are..I adore your words, and at the same time they strike me in the chest and take the air from my lungs and replace it with the hurt I feel bleeding from these sentences. You are such a grand poet. Can't wait for more. :)
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner May 28, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
you are such a sweetheart :heart: this is one of the loveliest comments i've ever received. this poem was a whole lot more personal than a lot of the stuff i write so it means even more to me you think so highly of it. from the bottom of my heart, thank you :tighthug:
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lupus-astra Featured By Owner May 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
And I don't know what to say because this is so damn gorgeous.
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner May 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
asdfghjkhgfdsa thank you
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PaintedxDark Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Wow, outstanding!
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
thank you!
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AnAwkwardBlue Featured By Owner May 26, 2013
So beautiful, i and ii remind me of myself, except I never go by Maddie because I'm feel like I'm not bouncy enough for it.
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
oh, really? what is your legal name?
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AnAwkwardBlue Featured By Owner May 27, 2013
Madeleine. Yours?
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner May 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
spelled differently, Madalyn :)
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AnAwkwardBlue Featured By Owner May 29, 2013
Coolio!
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Contradictory55 Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Student Writer
You make even anger and loneliness into a beautiful work of art. :huggle:
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
thank you
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Contradictory55 Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Student Writer
You're welcome :hug:
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DrippingWords Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Student Writer
Lovely. My favorite is ii. These are just beautiful.
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:love: thank you so much
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DrippingWords Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Student Writer
You are so welcome! :heart:
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Karinta Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Student General Artist
These poems are very personal - I often have a hard time deciphering the metaphors.
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
i usually use metaphors when i'm not sure how to outright say how i feel; like in this, these thoughts have been circulating in my head for days
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SirLorcan Featured By Owner May 26, 2013
This seems very hard and angry. But it is very thought provoking; good job.
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
i'm surprised it sounds hard and angry, but it is a reflection of my thoughts, so that might be more accurate than i realize. thank you :heart:
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SirLorcan Featured By Owner May 26, 2013
Perhaps hard and angry were not the best words to use... Something very strong though that I can't seem to put my finger on. It was very beautifully written and I've drawn a lot of help from it. You're welcome.
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I see what you mean. A lot of strong feelings give off the same sort of energy.
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SirLorcan Featured By Owner May 27, 2013
Exactly! I'm not going to try to interpret and pick apart this lovely writing because its so beautiful without knowing its full meaning and I don't want to ruin it. Once again, gorgeous piece.
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner May 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
once again, you're lovely :heart:
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